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Afshan D'souza-Lodhi's debut poetry collection, [re: desire], explores the desire to be loved, wanted, and connected from a South Asian perspective. In this collection D'souza-Lodhi, who was born in Dubai and raised in Manchester, blends flash fiction with poetry to explore the many facets of her identity as a young British desi.
One of the themes D'souza-Lodhi addresses is the complicated role that languages play in multilingual households. I was especially taken by a two-page piece of flash fiction called β1.5β, which begins with an anecdote about misogyny and turns into a sharp and moving comment about linguistic proficiency and what it feels like to grow detached from your cultural origins.
1.1 last night I cried / my dad came home / and told me an uncle had shouted at him for letting his daughter wear dresses / I cried / not because of the inherent sexism / the male gaze that will never let up in our community / but because when I imagined having a conversation / with this uncle, in Urdu / I couldnβt / I got halfway through telling him / what respect really meant / when I forgot the word for gaze / I couldnβt come up with the equivalent / in Hindi or Urdu / and my mother tongue bit itself / I am able to engage and interrogate certain ideas / in English but basic words / and emotions are still stuck / in my mother tongue / I cried because / even in my fantasies / I couldnβt win / an argument against my / sexist uncles.
For the most part, D'souza-Lodhi writes from a female perspective. As well as languageβwhich plays a huge role in [re: desire]βher poems touch on sex, objectification, racism, and abuse. One of the things I particularly admired about this collection is how deftly D'souza-Lodhi weaves all of these themes together to explore the connections between them. In one of my favourite poems of the collection, βmother tongueβ, she examines the emotional complexity having to speak English.
my motherβs mother tongue is Konkani,
but sometimes she speaks Hindi,
like when weβre out shopping
talking about the guy who just queue-jumped in front of us.
she smiles when she speaks it.
Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β head up. proud.
brings her closer to home.
but then, she has to revert back
to the language of the colonisers
to finish the tale and
Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β suddenly her head lowers.
In the bookβs prefatory note, D'souza-Lodhi explains that her collection draws on multiple literary traditions. For example, her decision to write without uppercase letter is a nod to Urdu poetry. Interestingly, she also draws influence from the tradition of mushairaβa traditional way of Urdu poetry recitationβwhich means her poems are designed to be read aloud.
I really enjoyed [re: desire]. D'souza-Lodhiβs language is clean, her observations are sharp, and her voice is extremely honest. I know Iβll be turning back to this collection.
[re: desire] by Afshan Dβsouza-Lodhi (Burning Eye Books, 2020)
More books by Emirati authors:
That Other Me by MahaΒ Gargash
The Sand Fish by Maha Gargash
Desperate in Dubai by Ameera Al Hakawati
Statue of Delma by Reem Al-Kamali
The Wink of the Mona Lisa by Mohammad Al-Murr
Temporary People by Deepak Unnikishnan
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Thanks for the review. I liked D'souza-Lodhi's take on language and sexism. Need to check out the book. It is poetry week now in the Netherlands (where I live: https://www.poezieweek.com/) so this is a perfect week to get this! :)