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The narrator of FEM, the 2011 novel by the celebrated Romanian writer Magda Cârneci, is having a tough time. Not only is she getting ready to leave her partner, sheâs also consumed by existential angst about what it means to inhibit a female body.Â
FEM takes the form of a letter addressed to the man the narrator is about to leave. Written mostly in the second personâthough it does sometimes delve into firstâthe narrator begins by comparing herself to Scheherazade. She goes onto explain what that means, a process which involves recounting childhood memories and documenting her thoughts as her mind wanders. The result is a sort of sweeping review of the female experience, which draws heavily on the works of philosophers Luce Irigaray and HĂŠlène Cixous.
Sometimes I understood myself without a sex, as though I woke up in the morning like a newborn with nothing between my legs, only to remember later that I have to put a costume on, not even mine, even though I keep it at my house. The costume is arcane and complicated, uncomfortable but luxurious, full of skirts, bows, zippers, embroidery; it is a costume I have to take care of constantly, to brush, clean, and repair. A borrowed costume, one I have to employ with a certain seriousness if I want to play my part, my partâwho knows who chose this part for me, who gave me this burden, who trained me, who forced it into my reflexes and brain. And precisely the strange, glossy gazes of the men I encountered on the street each morning abruptly reminded me to play the part again, to identify myself with the uniform I bought from home. Clearly, by now I donât even know if I could play another part. Iâve been in this bizarre costume, some even call it beautiful, from the startâŚ
Cârneci refers to gender studies, queer studies, and feminist theory but resists the urge to deconstruct her narratorâs experiences through an academic lens. âI donât theorize,â she explains, âI live.â So while the memories she recounts are largely tied to her experiences of being a womanâher relationship with her mother, getting her first period at summer camp, her first sexual encounter, the process of IVFâshe leaves it to the reader to connect the dots between experience and theory and work out what it all means. And itâs all the more interesting when you consider that FEM was published ten years agoâa long time in terms of feminist discourse.Â
Though I was impressed by the prose and the ambition of FEM, I have to admit that at times it lost me. Reading it was a tiring experience and though the book is full of eminently quotable lines (like this: âRecently, whenever I come near any boy I feel a kind of negative, evil energy riding over my legs and armsâ), itâs very heavy on mysticism and Iâm certain that a lot of its content went straight over my head. Still, Iâm glad I read it and if dreamy, oneiric storytelling is your thing, Iâm sure youâll get a lot out of it.
FEM by Magda Cârneci, translated by Sean Cotter (Deep Vellum, 2021 / Cartea RomâneascÄ, 2011)
More books by Romanian authors:
Wasted Morning by Gabriela AdameČteanu, tr. Patrick Camiller
Blinding by Mircea CÄrtÄrescu, tr. Sean Cotter
Angelus by Ruxandra Cesereanu, tr. Alistair Ian Blyth
Diary of a Short-Sighted Adolescent by Mircea Eliade, tr. Christopher Moncrieff and Christopher Bartholomew
The BÄiuČ Alley Lads by Filip Florian and Matei Florian, tr. Alistair Ian Blyth
The Passport by Herta MĂźller, tr. Martin Chalmers
Life Begins on Friday by Ioana Pârvulescu, tr. Alistair Ian Blyth
Sun Alley by Cecilia Stefanescu, tr. Alexandra Coliban and Andreea HĂśfer
Sword by Bogdan Teodorescu, tr Marina Sofia
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Ooh, this sounds absolutely fabulous. I hope youâre feeling refreshed after your hiatus!